Series: Red Market #1
Release Date: August 7, 2015
Publisher: Self Published
Genre: Dark / Abuse
Rating: ★★★ ½
Dysfunctional empires were made to fall.
I am Caesar. Broken and conflicted. I am a man who gives false goodness to those who crave it. I provide solace to the ones who beg to be saved, giving them the goodbyes they want. But, my quiet little world is about to be shattered by the whispers from heaven and hell.
I am Mateo. Unlovable and unworthy. I am the boy everyone runs from. I keep love close to me in little jars of perfection, reminding me of a thousand goodbyes I never had to say, because I left them before they could leave me.
I am Svetlana. Dirty and Used. Birthed into brutality while still trying to comprehend my version of normal. I am an injured lamb, eaten by filthy wolves day after day. Just as salvation seems like it's within reach, a goodbye from this awful world is all that I wish for.
**Graphic content warning including detailed depiction of brutal, bloody acts. Physical and emotional abuse is also apparent throughout this book with graphic sex scenes, both consensual and non-sensual. Reader discretion is highly advised. Not suitable for readers under the age of eighteen or those who are easily offended by the above mentioned acts.**
Two abused prostitutes, an organ harvester, a necrophiliac and a junkie pimp... Sounds like the start of a bad joke. It's really the main characters of the most fucked up book I've ever read. Ever.
I am not the worst thing that can happen to you, but I will be the last.
Svetlana was born to a pimp and hooker. She's never known a life outside of being abused and used by her junkie father. He sells her for his own addiction. She wishes to die. She wishes to be loved. Her mind is just as, if not more, broken than her body. She doesn't see herself as anything other than a vessel for abuse and rape. She believes that is what she was born for.
Others are created for love. Me, I was made for hate.
There is a point where Svetlana's entire world changes. A point where Ceasar and Mateo come into play. They change some things about her existence for the better, others ... not so much. Because Ceasar and Mateo are not sane and good individuals either. They live in the shadow's of the world's underbelly. They do unspeakable things to people who they hope won't be missed. They save poor souls, they give life, but they do it with horrific acts.
I need her to be ready to give up. I want her to want to say goodbye, as it's so much more satisfying when they have no will to live.
Ceasar and Mateo both come to love Svetlana. And she them. But these people don't know how to love. They know fucked up feelings that they don't understand and they confuse for love.
Hell, sweet angel. You are in hell. Welcome, we all fit in so well here.
There is not a single good person in this book. Svetlana comes the closest, but it would take this girl years and years of therapy to truly get there. The Goodbye Man is a tale of the cruelest people, living in the darkest shadows and yet somehow surviving and grasping for the chance at love and acceptance.
The Goodbye Man is written in a way that makes it very easy to get inside of the head of these characters. Which is equally thrilling and disturbing. My only real complaint is that it was, at times, too repetitive. The point was made and then made again and it lead me to skim at a couple of points. Beyond that, this is a fairly well written, completely disturbing, dark ass read that will probably stick with me for a while.