Release Date: March 24, 2015
Publisher: Tara Sivec
Genre: Adult Contemporary Romance
Source: From Author for Review
Rating: ★★★★ ½
I guess this is it, huh? After fourteen years together, starting a life of our own on this island, five deployments and countless letters I’ve written you through it all, I finally go out to the mailbox and see something I’ve always dreamed of: an envelope with your handwriting on it. For one moment, I actually thought you’d changed your mind, that all the awful things you said to me were just your way of coping after everything you’d been through. I was still here, Fisher. I was still here, holding my breath, waiting for you to come back even though you told me you never would. You always said you’d find your way back to me. Out of all the lies you’ve told me, this one hurts the most.Enclosed you will find the signed divorce papers, as requested.I hope you find what you’re looking for. I’m sorry it wasn’t me.
To get the ending they want, Lucy and Fisher will have to go back to the beginning. Through the good and the bad, they’ll be reminded of why they always made their way back to each other, and why this time, one way or another, it will be the last time.
While I love Tara Sivec for all the funny and laugh-out-loud moments she's given us from her previous works, I think her talents truly shine when she makes her readers all sappy and emotional. I knew Sivec was capable of bringing the feels (as she had demonstrated in Watch Over Me), so I was more than ready to read FISHER'S LIGHT as soon as she released the synopsis. From start to finish, Tara Sivec showed me how she's one of the most well-rounded writers out there in the indie romance community.
I've lost him. Everything he ever promised me was a lie. He was never going to find his way back to me.
After returning from his fifth deployment, Lucy Fisher has noticed that her husband Jefferson Fisher just isn’t the same man that left her many months ago. He’s detached from her physically and emotionally, and no matter how hard she tries to be there to comfort him, they continue to drift further and further apart. Not new to this behavior, Lucy tries to wait it out with Fisher and continues to hope that he will eventually reach out to her for her help and comfort.
But after months and months of being physically and emotionally void, Fisher abruptly packs all of Lucy's things and demands she leave the house they have shared for the last ten years. After spewing hurtful words to Lucy, and causing a scene in front of their small island community, Fisher disappears from Fisher Island without leaving a word as to where he has gone off to. A few weeks later, Lucy receives a package in the mail from Fisher that leaves her utterly devastated.
Was I happy? Did I ever smile and laugh easily without a care in the world? How do I get that back when the darkness is hell bent on taking over, holding me in it's clutches and making sure I never see the sunshine again?
Told in alternating POV's that flash between the present and the past, Tara Sivec shows us how Lucy and Fisher went from the high school sweetheart couple to the present couple who have been living in hurt, pain and regret for the last thirteen months. Seeing Lucy and Fisher's marriage deteriorate was real devastating to read. It was very obvious that these two loved each other with every fiber of their body, but they just could not communicate what they were going through. I felt Lucy's hopelessness when she had no clue as to how to help her husband. Wanting to be there for the person you love the most but not knowing how to help them must be the worst feeling in the world.
...you have to figure out on your own that there are more important things than fighting a battle we might never win. Sometimes there are more important things to fight for right here at home.
While having to read Lucy's part of the story was heartbreaking, Sivec really kicks you in the gut with tales Fisher's struggles with PTSD. For many soldiers, the war they are fighting doesn't end as soon as they walk away from the battlefields. Fisher's battle with the disease was a result of many years spent in war torn countries and then going back home and trying to transition back into normal life. Every emotion that Fisher went through felt so heart-wrenchingly real, raw and devastating, that I had to take a break between intense moments just to get through the book. Seeing him relive horrific nightmares and flashbacks really gutted me, and made me think of the hundreds of thousands of our own US soldiers who suffer through this mental disease. While Fisher's struggles is a fictionalized, Sivec does a phenomenal job at representing it as true and raw. His story will gut you and break your heart, so make sure you have tissues close by if you're a crier.
War changes everyone, son, there's no shame in that. If it doesn't change you, you were already too fucked up to begin with. What's important is that you did the right thing and you found your way home.
From watching Fisher and Lucy's once happy marriage disintegrate, to witnessing Fisher's heartbreaking struggle with PTSD, and seeing how Lucy and Fisher put the pieces of their lives back together again, Tara Sivec has definitely set out to give her readers all the feels in FISHER'S LIGHT. The passion and careful thought she put into writing about such a serious subject, such as PTSD, is displayed in this beautiful, emotional, and realistic piece of work. Your heart will ache for Lucy. It'll break for Fisher. But you'll be glued to every single page of this romance from beginning to end, so make sure you don't miss out on it!